i have been searching for true love . but could not find it. I heard the old saying love happens by itself. we cannot make it happen. I talked with many girls many of whom i admired.

but you see chatting is chatting its away from real. In real life one has to run the house , look after loans payments, take care of kids, take care of our body and soul and make money , doing job or business. You understand what i mean.? real world is lot more complex than 4ppl. we all come here to feel relaxed and we should.

but i think its only 1 out of 100 people who gets real soul mate. I dont want to pessimistic though i am pessimistic ,its not my fault. You see nature,  its my nature to find flaws where its been okeyed by experts. I am bit funny you must have known by now. and ofcourse stupid. i know lot of girls like stupid boys. Because they feel safer in their company.

I make lot of mistakes before hitting the bullseye. i made mistakes in love also. lot of girls just dont feel good enough when the topic which is sexual in nature comes. Earlier i thought its ok to talk about sexy things. But girls are put off by this as they think we consider them whores not good girls . My judgement is true isnt it.? anyone who wants to correct me is free to do that.

To be honest i am 33 and at this age i dont have the guts  left after so many love life failures

to crystalize the thought that i should fall in love. failure after failure has not made me weak but i think stronger as love happens by itself , we cannot make it happen.

i once fell in love with  a girl its long time back and she also liked me. we used eat together our lunches and work together in the same company. that was different kind of love , true love. i just fell in love with her looking at her for the first time. seriously no kidding. I will just say one thing if love is there in your life , life becomes really rosy. really good life. you feel differently. you behave differently. There is joy in heart . i think you got my point.