Have you ever lost someone important for you?

Some of you would say "yes" to this question, and maybe you'll understand my feelings too.


Just recently, I had lost very important man in my life.   I have loved him more than anyone else, he was the only one I could believe, he was my very first love -he was my husband.

Because I had been living abroad, we had spent most of our time separated.   Even though we weren't together, there's no moment I hadn't thought about him.   We had a lot of difficulties, but we overcame it together for the day of living together.


But our love had ended after hurting each other's feelings.   It had cost a huge damage for both of us since we had been showing the depth of one's heart. 

Bitterness and sadness had been left after that -we had walked away from each other's life.

These days I've came to think about that decision, only if I had known how hard it was to loose him, I mustn't have had made a same choice.   Anything could be better than suffering day and night, regretting what I've done, what we could've  changed.

But for now,only the thing we can do would be thanking for the memories, how lucky we were to have been able to spend time togther.   It wouldn't be just about partner, members of family, friends or pet must be same since we've got to say goodbye someday.
Holding happy memories in our heart, any kind of relationship, even horrible one had taught us something -we could love someone else so seriously.   We'll learn something from them, we must have changed in some way, we could be stronger.   Even the memories were sad, how can I hate him, the man who had brought me up mentaly?   

I believe that every single meeting in our life has meaning.   We had met because we needed to meet.  

I've learned from that relationship, what I wish for now is that I'd be able to be good partner for  someone I'll meet in the future...